A couple weeks ago I finally got an interview with the school district here for a position at the nearest High School. I made it to the first level of interviews for a high school secretary. It was a 5 minute get to meet the principal and answer a scenario and submit the answer on line to the principal. If he liked you and your answer, you would be selected to move on to the next level. I arrived to my meet and greet and found out it was for an attendance secretary position. Well that was a huge disappointment, but I figured I had to start somewhere. That is the least attractive secretarial position. I was quite charming and did extremely well. Precise, intelligent and to the point answers. My scenario answer must have been acceptable because I got the call back.
So the next week I returned for my interview before the panel of six. Let me tell you first, I suck at interviewing. For the life of me, I cannot answer in a short to the point neat form. I know the content I need to convey, but I go the long way around. I know it is nerves even though I don't think I'm nervous. It certainly did not help that some meds I'm taking are causing dry mouth. So the first answer I get into my lips start sticking to my teeth. I can barely form the words. I had to ask for water. Luckily there was a water dispenser right next to the table. Humiliating - Yes. Each panelist asked one question. Let me tell you right there. That is not the usual way of school district panel questioning. There is usually at least two questions each. That in itself tells you they already had someone selected. Anyway - the point is. I sucked and they already had someone they wanted.
When I walked out, I thought to myself they must have looked at each other and shook their heads and thought "what was that?". I was so depressed and so embarrassed for a couple of days. I started to do some soul searching. Why do I want to work for the school district? What is so attractive about that? Of course, it is the hours and all the days off. Then it came to me that I am in a different time in my life and a different place. I realized that I need to be working. The money, the socialization, and to not be home all the hours with just Fred and the summer hours in the heat. It made me admit to myself that Fred and I will never be that couple that go adventuring and exploring even though that was just about the main reason that we wanted a change in our lifestyle in moving here. We just are not those people. We are home bodies. He likes to dink around the house with projects and I like to be with people, watch TV, go out with friends and be in a work environment where I can be me.
So I'm not going to look for a school job anymore. I'm going to stick with my job. You know, I filled out my application on line at Express Professionals on Sunday night. They called me on Monday or Tuesday to come in for an interview and sent me to work on Wednesday. Ummmm - do you think that there was some divine guidance in this? I certainly do. There is a reason I am there. I do LOVE these people. AND I have stuff to do now. It is glorious. It is also so healthy for me emotionally to know that I acknowledge things about myself, me and Fred, and our relationship and what we truly are about and it's okay. We are who we are and we do what we do.
No I can't go stay with my children for weeks on end during the summer, but guess what? They are close enough that weekends are easy to do and we can do it more often. So - it's a nice compromise. Scott and Jess will be in Texas so that will not be the case, but life isn't perfect. We will figure that out.
So that is my latest life change and realization. I'm a working girl and have no plan on retiring in the near future. Fred has to have all the projects done. Backyard, shelves in all the closets in the house, sort through all his stuff in the office and set up the office, set up his garage and sort through and arrange our big closet in the hallway. Those are the only projects that I am aware of that exist that we came up with when we moved in. Now that does not mean he will not come up with more as days go by. You know he can come up with more at the drop of a hat. Those are the ones that I see need to be done. After those, I don't care. I can't see any that will affect my eyesight.
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